It's been a stressful two weeks, but it hasn't been all bad. I've been: wondering | meeting| catching| loving | taking | thinking | resisting | overthinking | starting | reminding
When it comes to the big picture, I have a three-month attention span.
It takes three months for that initial burst of energy and enthusiasm to fade.
It takes three months to lose sight of my big goals, and get bored with the day-to-day grind required to achieve them. Three months to start to question whether those goals are actually possible, and whether I’ve got the drive to see them through. Three months to start thinking ’I don’t feel like writing today. I’ll make it up tomorrow.’
In other words, March was difficult.
It’s been… a month and a half since I finished the first draft of The Black Sun.
I haven’t looked at it yet. Soon. As soon as I’ve actually started the Violet Lane rewrite… which I wanted to be working on by now, but I spent most of this week with a minor-but-annoying cold that slowed my progress. But it’s going to happen! The outline is taking shape - I broke out the index cards late last week - and I hope to be able to start the actual writing by the end of next week.
Actually, I’m going to put it out there: I am going to start the actual writing by the end of next week.
If January taught me anything, it’s that I need to have some kind of well-defined photography project if I’m going to keep shooting. And I need to make a public commitment to that project. Without those two things, I really struggle to stay on track with any of my photography goals.
In other words, it wasn’t a good month for me as a photographer.
The last two weeks! I've been: taking | playing | hoping | remembering | catching | attempting | starting | searching | wondering | practicing
The last two weeks! There's been a lot of introspection. I've been: finding | falling | hoping | putting | watching | wishing | thinking | reevaluating | wondering | unsubscribing
This hasn’t been a great month.
I’ll just get that out of the way to start: I haven’t done nearly as much writing as I’d hoped, and photography has been a bit of a struggle, and I still haven’t started my painting.
But weirdly, I’m ok with that. I’m realizing that this is completely normal for me, and I’m learning how to work with it.
Trying to remember what I've done the last two weeks... going | feeling | planning | watching | starting | having | remembering | making | thinking | buying
I'm still at a creative low. It's not just photography - I wasn't all that enthusiastic about writing this week, either, and a lot of my other projects sort of stalled on me.
Ok, so I might be taking too many pictures of flowers lately.