I’ll be honest: the heatwave has been awful for my motivation this month. I haven’t wanted to do anything but hide indoors and stare at my phone. (Even watching a movie or reading has felt like it required too much energy the last few weeks.)
My goals going into July were to write (including outlining and editing) more days than not, and to keep going with my photography project. I wanted to make it another 1/3 of the way through editing The Black Sun, and make a good start on the Violet Lane outline. And I wanted to start carrying a real camera more often.
On Monday, I finished the first round of edits on The Black Sun.
It's been a very busy two weeks, but I still struggled to remember what I've been doing. I've been: editing | trying | moving | enduring | repainting | worrying | hemming | working | looking | feeling
We’re officially half-way through the year. Or we will be in a few days.
I’m mostly saying that to remind myself, because it feels like 2018 is never going to end. It feels like we’ve been stuck in 2018 for three years already, it will always be 2018, this is our life now. This is an impossible year in which to write, or look for beauty, or make art in general. June in particular has been a difficult month - in light of the news, it’s hard not to feel like this is all a little bit shallow.
But art - writing and photography - is what’s keeping me sane this month. This year.
A day late with this (time got away from me this weekend), but here goes. The last two weeks, I've been: working | processing | finishing | going | sorting | waking | thinking | figuring | trying | reading
I wasn’t quite sure what to expect going into May.
I finished April feeling good about how I was approaching my goals. I was feeling really good about the first draft of The Black Sun and my writing routine in general, but not so great about Violet Lane. And kind of awful about my photography. And I wasn’t exactly clear on my goals for May; I knew I wanted to keep moving forward, but beyond that…?
So I have no real metrics with which to judge May. Vague emotional impressions, it is!
I'm a little surprised that two weeks have passed already. I've been: realizing | finishing | thinking | reaching | discovering | learning | looking | studying | starting | cleaning
The last two weeks, I've been: feeling | making | researching | editing | missing | putting | rethinking | thinking | trying | wishing
The last two weeks! I've been: shopping | thinking | spending | feeling | eating | having | taking | reading | working | settling
It’s probably a good thing that I’m so close to the finish line on this particular project. I’ve already started to feel the end of the year creeping up on me, which means I’m thinking about new goals I want to set and new projects I want to tackle.