Most months, I take this post as an opportunity to reflect on the creative goals I’d set, and decide what I want to try to do in the coming month. Sometimes, taking that time to reflect leads me in a direction that doesn’t really fit into the standard format I’ve established for these ‘sketchbooks.’
Which is a roundabout way of saying this might be long, and it might ramble a bit. I’m trying to figure out some stuff, here, and if this isn’t the best way for me to do it, at least it’s been effective in the past.
Ok? Let’s go.
The way I’ve been managing my creative life - the things I’m working on, my creative energy, my time - isn’t working.
I made it!
And I did it in the 12-14 days I said I would! (This roundup is happening about a week late, because the last week has been a bit of a mess.)
I’ll be honest: the heatwave has been awful for my motivation this month. I haven’t wanted to do anything but hide indoors and stare at my phone. (Even watching a movie or reading has felt like it required too much energy the last few weeks.)
My goals going into July were to write (including outlining and editing) more days than not, and to keep going with my photography project. I wanted to make it another 1/3 of the way through editing The Black Sun, and make a good start on the Violet Lane outline. And I wanted to start carrying a real camera more often.
Ten days to go!
Or, knowing me and the way I've approached this project, probably closer to 12-14 days to go! (Remember when I said this project was going to end on 9 June? And that I'd use a real camera more than my phone? Good times.)
I'm a little bit late with this roundup. And I was a little bit (but not quite as) late getting through this particular group of ten photos.
We’re officially half-way through the year. Or we will be in a few days.
I’m mostly saying that to remind myself, because it feels like 2018 is never going to end. It feels like we’ve been stuck in 2018 for three years already, it will always be 2018, this is our life now. This is an impossible year in which to write, or look for beauty, or make art in general. June in particular has been a difficult month - in light of the news, it’s hard not to feel like this is all a little bit shallow.
But art - writing and photography - is what’s keeping me sane this month. This year.
I'm still missing a day here and there, but that's fine. I haven't let the project stall again, so I'm happy.
I'm also starting to think about what comes after I hit Day 100.
I'm honestly starting to freak myself out with this. Just a little.
I've managed to stay (mostly) on schedule for more than one week in a row!
I'm not a superstitious person.
At the same time, I'm really reluctant to talk about how well this project is going. I feel like if I do, if I talk about how I'm finding a rhythm, I'll jinx it.
But I'm not a superstitious person, and this project is starting to go really well. Not every single day, but on the days when it does go well, it's kind of amazing. I'm happy with this project specifically, and I'm thrilled with my photography in general lately.