It's the first snapshot of 2019! I've been: easing | trying | marvelling | watching | rereading | rethinking | hating | organizing | looking | feeling
I was beginning to wonder if we were ever going to escape from 2018, but… here we are! 2019! Only a week in and already so weird but… so far, things are marginally better than last year, so I’ll take it.
I hope everyone's having a great couple of weeks. I've been: eating | indulging | figuring | making | feeling | craving | accepting | trying | looking | taking
I can't believe how fast the last two weeks have gone. I've been: feeling | watching | solving | making | hemming | trying | listening | thinking | muting | wondering
The last few weeks have been exhausting. Seriously. I've been: surviving | making | missing | enduring | looking | craving | going | feeling | collecting | wishing
I fell into a bit of a trap this week. It’s a familiar one for me, one I seem to stumble into every time I want to make a big change, whether it’s with writing, or photography, or getting organized, or (this time) setting goals.
I start to think that other people have the answers, and that if I just read enough books or articles or blog posts, I’ll eventually stumble onto the right one, the one that brings everything into focus.
It never happens.
The last two weeks have been kind of... meh. I've been: grumbling | reminding | resisting | testing | finalizing | running | accepting | trying | mourning | remembering
The last two weeks. Um. Yeah. They happened. I've been: starting | feeling | debating | making | craving | reminding | enduring | getting | looking | buying
This week, I’ve been thinking about my big goals.
Not the big things I’m trying to accomplish right now, or even my one-year goals (though there has been some of that), but the big goals. The things that stretch out over five or ten years. And I’m starting to realize that I don’t really know what those goals are. Or… it’s kind of hard to describe. I can picture exactly what I want my life to look like in that time, what I want it to feel like, but beyond that, it’s a bit of a blur. It makes actually planning for that future difficult, if not impossible. I'm limited to taking steps that feel like they're going in the right direction, without really knowing what the finish line looks like.
The last two weeks went by in a flash, but they've been really good. I've been: wishing | wondering | realizing | feeling | trying | looking | realizing | finding | loving | drinking