I'm feeling kind of good about the last two weeks. I've been: working | processing | hemming | thinking | building | starting | getting | troubleshooting | considering | daydreaming
This is what happened: I thought I was done putting too much pressure on myself with this project. And then I missed a day (lack of inspiration, or motivation, or something else... I can't remember at this point), and then two days, and then I started feeling anxious about how the project had stalled....
The last two weeks have been so busy. In a good way. I've been: thinking | trying | making | wondering | struggling | putting | managing | spending | having | starting
I had one big goal in April: to get over the ennui and inertia of March and find my focus again. (So… nothing too big, then?)
I think I succeeded. Mostly.
The first step was reviewing and revising my long-term goals, and figuring out how to keep them top-of-mind. And that’s actually been the biggest change I’ve made this month: I’ve completely changed the way I set and keep track of my goals, and I’m working to modify the ways I juggle day-to-day tasks and projects. I’ve taken some big steps, but the whole thing still feels very much like a work-in-progress; I’m still making little changes, and figuring out the flaws in my new systems, but I do feel like I’m (finally) on the right track. (I’ll go into more detail later, once I’ve ironed out the kinks. The whole thing feels like it merits its own post.)
That’s the general. And I’ll be honest: the general is working better than the specific for me right now.
Every month, I put together a list of everything that caught my attention. Here's April.
It's been an introspective two weeks. I've been: going | thinking | feeling | wondering | getting | waiting | starting | making | befriending | hoping
The last two weeks have been... good? Busy, but good. I've been: finding | resisting | planning | making | getting | wondering | starting | eating | thinking | refreshing
Now that I've taken some of the pressure off - and since I've had fresh flowers on hand to play with - this project is fun.
When it comes to the big picture, I have a three-month attention span.
It takes three months for that initial burst of energy and enthusiasm to fade.
It takes three months to lose sight of my big goals, and get bored with the day-to-day grind required to achieve them. Three months to start to question whether those goals are actually possible, and whether I’ve got the drive to see them through. Three months to start thinking ’I don’t feel like writing today. I’ll make it up tomorrow.’
In other words, March was difficult.
A list of everything that's caught my attention this month.