February was one of those months that just… didn’t work for me. That one week in the middle – something like a vacation, but not quite – threw me off my game for the entire month. I had a hard time being productive the week before (because I knew I’d be taking a break, so I didn’t want to build momentum only to lose it again), and I struggled to find my stride again after.
I really need to find a way to work around interruptions like that. They’re a real struggle for me, and I’ve never been able to figure out a way to integrate them into my creative process.
I’ve been busy! I’ve spent the last two weeks: planning | painting | waiting | getting | looking | finding | admitting | obsessing | working | starting
The last two weeks have been… kind of slow, really. I’ve been: playing | feeling | wishing | looking | planning | watching | reading | cleaning | getting | outlining
If January taught me anything, it’s that I need to have some kind of well-defined photography project if I’m going to keep shooting. And I need to make a public commitment to that project. Without those two things, I really struggle to stay on track with any of my photography goals.
In other words, it wasn’t a good month for me as a photographer.
On Monday, I was convinced that I wouldn’t be meeting my self-imposed deadline to finish this story, despite the commitment I made last week. It wasn’t that there was a lot of story left to go, just… the story that was left was a bit daunting. This was the final set piece, the ultimate confrontation, and I knew it would be draining. And it was.
But I did it.